december 15 . 2020

Faultlines

I didn’t see them

Did anyone?

Did anyone else see this one coming,

That the very steadiness we stand on every day would crack right in two, three, four, twelve, twenty places around us?

Under the surface, just waiting for the shaking that would make a decision finally – to close up, or to split open

What a relief?

To have the clarity

To have the definition of the spaces, even if they are split, ripped to shreds, cut up into sharp shards that cut and rip and split if you’re not careful, if you don’t watch your step

If you don’t watch your words

If you don’t watch your tone

Actually, …maybe you should watch your thoughts

Your heart

Pretty sure it doesn’t matter much – what you say and what you do with those words, with that tone – if the words and tone inside your head is sharp, ripping, cutting

Because then you’re harming two: the “other”,

and you.


I guess the quake was inevitable

And we probably needed it.


At least it’s all exposed now

At least there’s less pretending now

At least the truth is out now

At least maybe now, or soon,

Inevitably?

Little trickles of healing can start to drip into those great expanses that stand between us

Water always

always

eventually

finds the lowest places.

october 7 . 2016

October is my favorite month.

Main reason: it’s getting colder. If you know me even a little, you know I prefer cold weather (read: I really really dislike the heat).

This morning, I added a scarf to my outfit for the first time this season because the chill in the air was just so delicious. There is nothing like walking outside, covered with the right layers in the right places so that cozy goes with you everywhere except your cheeks. Your cheeks are tickled with the 55 degree air but you love it because Fall. Continue reading “october 7 . 2016”

september 23 . 2016

I.

Today I am wrestling with some questions.

How do we process uncomfortable things in our lives – like, character flaws, or interpersonal and relational issues, negative or unhelpful behaviors?

How do we not allow ourselves to get depressed by the epiphany of discovery and turn into a recluse and hide because of the dumb and stupid things we said when we were unfiltered? How do we not ignore the epiphany? Continue reading “september 23 . 2016”